Genesis

i leave for rwanda in a week
i have 3 empty jars on my desk that i cant figure out what to fill with.
i am welcome to ideas.

i feel like im living right now.
i mean duh, im living right now.
but i just feel like a lot is happening right now.

it was a wonderful day today for a bunch of people.
me and Kate had a moment in the car this afternoon on the way home from dinner i think it was.
we were reflecting on the year and where things had taken us,
and where we were right then.
and it became very clear to me that we had started all over again.
from the beginning.
we were exactly where we were at the beginning of the school year.
it was a funny feeling.

i was a clean slate.
everything that was for both of us had come and gone.
our lives had their own seasons that peaked and fell and then leveled off.

im glad for a lot of things
im changing so much
maybe you wont have the same problem that i will

i think that it is not a competition
i am not less okay because we are not in the same spot
i think where i am and how i feel are incredibly appropriate.
and like wise for you.

worrying is like telling God that he can't handle the future.