la dolce vita

i was made for the city. i was made for the lights and the cars and the freeways and the tall buildings and the hustle and the bustle and all the different types of people.

i come alive in the city.

i feel alive in the city.

i feel free,

i feel like i could just disappear into the night without anyone noticing,

but at the same time, feel like im a part of everything.

i was driving home from downtown tonight with the windows down listening to imogen heaps new song First Train Home, and i felt completely in my element.

everything about this week has been so refreshing to my soul.

it could have not come at a better time either.

i have two of the most beautiful and wonderful people ever created as my best friends.

i wouldnt want to experience life with any other people.

simply spending time with them this week has been so healing.

3 months had been far too long.

this summer has been hard.

but this week convinced me that it wont be that way for much longer.

this year is going to be so different.

im done with being anything but exactly what i want when i want.

sometimes, i feel as if i might as well be wearing a big cardboard sign around my neck reading "Dont Bother."

because thats how i feel.

i dont want to bother with drama.

there is no room for it in my life.

i will stop things before they start.

i have no attachments.

i have 3 best friends.

i am 20 years old.

i have a car that can drive me anywhere.

my goodness, i went through so many different emotions this week.

for all the things that ive felt, i feel as if ive been gone much longer than one single week.

i found out what you are doing and who you are doing it with.

freedom is a funny thing.

it comes at the weirdest times from the most unexpected places.

im not ready to quite leave the city yet, but tomorrow i will wave goodbye to its tall skyscrapers

and its crowded highways.

ill say goodbye to 80's night at numbers, ecclesia, afternoons spent on my beloved westheimer, jamba juice, and all of my wonderful cafe discoveries.

im so glad that i call this home.

im so glad that i have this.

im so glad that its mine, and i know it.

im so glad that i grew up here.

i know how to handle the city.

its roads, its people, its driving.

"la dolce vita"

...what a sweet life it is.